My morality and motivation has reached the low point of 0 today...
Still searching for a job, been unemployed for the past 3 years; and last week I finally managed to find a potential job (tho not fulltime, but atleast I'd have something interesting to do and earn money with it).
There was this woman who's searching for an artist do draw for her a 3 panel comic each week for some Sports Drinks company. Seemed easy enough; after I finally got through stupid birocracy regarding the payment.
So I was given a task (among other 8 people who applied for the job), to draw out some of the craracters that were suppose to be present in the comics.
2 days later I sent her a few quick skecth samples of 4 of her character; sadly she wasn't satisfied; so she sent me a sample of one of the other participants....I cringed. Not just because from the fact that my drawing (which was a quick sketch) was like something a child could've drawn compare to his, but also from the fact that she stated that she wants the comic to be on traditional pencil&hand colored base, which means no PC involvment. What I saw was hard to believed it wasn't done with PC.
Anyway, I restarted on the characters design again and sent her samples again.
I got a message from her today and she explained to me clear and simple: I'm just too amateur; i failed regarding body ratio, poses and facial expressions; which are essential or making a comic; and if I'm ever to get anywhere I need (you guessed it, since you hear it a thousand times) practice, practice and practice.
So there's were my morality and motivation drops. How long will it take for some one to become an artist, deacent enough to make a visually appealing comic that people will be willing to see; let alone on level of people like or ; I mean they probably started like in their late teens and they're almost 30 now.
Me? What I started back in my later teens was some random Sonic scribbles, becasue I was interested in how much skill it takes to achieve the visuals in a cartoon. Only later when I saw 's SA2 fancomic I got more interested in drawing, but honestly, I did nothing else but copy poses from cartoons and other artists.
Later, when the whole Sonic fanism was finally burner out of me, I just couldn't maker myself to draw anymore, I just didn't saw a point nor motivation to continue doing it; until 2 years ago when I attended my sister's seminar about what to do with your life. So after much pondering I got a deacent idea for a comic I'd make, the plot wasn't there as whole, but characters and base of plot more or less were.
So I set myself the goal to make comic through which I will tell an epic saga that will be remembered. But here in lay a problem; I had not previous artistical education or anything related to art like most artists do, so I figured I'd just learn it on my own and it'll eventually come naturally to me... big mistake.
2 years later and I hardly advanced in my skill, sometimes it takes me almost a week to flush out a "deacent" picture and even than, after looking at it for long enough, I eventually cringe because I failed to make the appearance that I had vizualised in my head or because I forgot to add something in it. I'm 25 for crying out loud and I hardly got any closer to realizing my dream.
What I'm getting at, I need some help... professional help (and I mean artistic one, not the other one XP) or atleast help from somebody who has more experiance in art; and I don't mean by just giving me some pointers.
Oh... and I could also use a hug right now...